Don't you just hate when life seems to just keep kicking you and there's nothing to do about it. Like when your mom is braking down and your grandfather has cancer. Or when you brake down and just cry because you feel like you're going to explode from all those feelings you never let out because you are trying to protect everyone else and make them happy,and then find out that your other grandfather died. How about when your grades go down drastically because you feel so sad all the time and find yourself sleeping all the time whether you want to or not just to try and get away from it all. Also eating so much more than you are used to just because. Or when you feel like an elephant because you have fallen off that diet that you were doing so good on because you just don't care about yourself anymore. When you stop caring about you and only strive to make everyone around you happy. Believe me this is no way to live. If anyone has been wondering why I've been so down and not quite myself, here is my explanation. I put on a smile so that no one feels bad for me and I don't want to be pitied by anyone I just need to let out my feelings some how.

Current Location: bed room
Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: none

Yeah just so everyone knows, I have suddenly found a new love for acting. I've always wanted to try but I was always too scared to try out for anything. So finally I was like what the hell. It turned out that I'm really enjoying myself and I'm getting complements at how good I was. Which makes me very very happy!

Current Location: my room
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: none

Well it's 12:04 thursday morning and I'm still up watching RENT, taking Psych notes, and tell everyone about it! Only by distracting myself every now and then just so I can keep going. I just finished having an hour long conversation with an old friend who moved to FL. I'm also wiped from "HELL WEEK" now I understand why it's called that. Four hour rehearsals just so I can say a few lines. Such a waste of time. I don't know about everyone else but my life is not all that interesting. There's the everyday home life that drives me absolutely INSANE!! My siblings are forever fighting and arguing to the point where I just can't take it and I can't help but to scream. There's a little bit of info you all know about me! Well I guess that's all for now. Talk to you all on the flip side!

Current Location: My room as always
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: RENT

Why is Bart so bad t remembering names of songs??

Current Mood: contemplative

Omg My new favorite thing to do is play cranium. Tonight was awesome!! No matter what Natalia and Giselle say beating someone by 1 question is not mudering them at the game specially when you have to hum the star wars theme!! SO much fun must do again. TTFN

Current Location: bed room
Current Mood: amused